Your band sucks

  Being a music fan and former teenage virgin wanna be groupie "poet", I've made observations during this time.You have the dreamers,bar bands,has-beens, truely charismatic artists types with ambition and determination.( I know there's other types, duh.)

  Maybe, I'm mean, a bitch or a "fan" with "standards and self-respect" these days. but I can't be so silly as to ask the "bar band/has beens" for an autograph. In the old days, yes ,sadly Warrant did sign my boob. My friend and I did follow James's Heitfield or whatever his name is to the bathroom at The Stone. BUT this was 1988 or early 1989 when he was still "cool" in my eyes. Anyways' my point being YOUR BAR BAND BAND SUCKS!  I want to see some angst,pain,hatred,happiness live!

  GIMME ME ANYTHING but your "fake ego pretending you like me so i'll like your facebook page or just hoping i'll happen to stop by your show flattered because YOU in a band gives me any attention". Tee Hee.

Give a piece of your soul..or IF that is your soul I feel so sad, angry, and angsty! Whatever happened to healthy competition that made artists strive for something bigger and deeper?  Sometimes, I wish I had the power to take the guitarist, or singer out of a band and say the rest sucks but you could really do something interesting!

Do you wanna sleep,fuck and eat......

  I''ve avoided the subject of sexuality for a bit, but recently projection has reared its head.  First off,i never asked to be a person of the female gender. I never completely fit within the paramaters. I really didn't fit the mold. I wasalways: too ugly but not ugly enough at.points,too mouthy,too cerebral,too crazy,too fat,too quiet,too sexually repressed,too sexually precocious,too honest,too broke, too slutty,etc  ad nauseam. It got old!

  My upbringing was filled with underlining undertones of Catholicism. I was one month in utero when my biological mother killed the man I though was my biological father. She was incarcerated in a Chino California.Chino prison was my place of expulsion from my biological mother's womb. Born from the begining baptized at three days old to keep me safe and protected from my mother's "sin"." Original sin". Two of the most hardcore sins. That is the begining of my knowledge of religion-Intermingled with biology,religion,sexuality and punishment. This is where it all started.


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